Snowy
Before leaving home, I asked Joel and Jake to make me a bear at Build-A-Bear at the mall. I wanted something to take with me, and I wanted the bear to have their voices. I ended up choosing a soft, white polar bear and Jake recorded a message for me to put inside. Joel tried to do it with him, but it was too loud in the store and sounded poor. Jake’s message – a very loud: “I love you mommy.” I have slept with that polar bear every night since I’ve been in Tampa – in the hospital and now in the apartment. I press the sound button in Snowy’s (the polar bear – I know, so creative) arm before going to sleep and although at times it makes me sad, it always makes me smile.
I had the idea to make the boys bears with a message from me. I think I had this thought because a few weeks ago, Joel told me that Jake cried because he missed me; it was really the first time we saw him realize my absence. He always knew I was gone but he’s young and went throughout his day; however, we believe time finally took it’s toll. All my ideas seem to be coming to me when I sleep and it just occurred to me one night that hearing my voice might help the boys deal with my absence. So last week, mom and I went to a mall and passed a Build-A-Bear and I did it. I made personal messages for Jake and Josh and stuffed them into two similar yet different bears. Jacob’s is called Cookie and Joshua’s is Brownie – I think I was hungry when I made them! I told Joel and we decided to give them to the boys during their Valentine’s Day visit.
Cookie (for Jacob) & Brownie (for Joshua)
I gave the boys their bear when they arrived late Friday afternoon. Jacob was not that thrilled; plus, my voice sounded muffled. It sounded fine in the store, but it was loud inside. We had a little boy behind us who literally screamed – just a high pitch scream for absolutely no reason at all. It actually gave me and mom a headache. Mom got Josh to giggle with his bear, and his message was completely clear. Before the boys left, I brought out the bears again and this time went better. Jacob even posed for a picture with the bear. Now, the bears are with the boys at home and hope the messages provide them some comfort.
Jacob with Cookie
Joshua with Brownie
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what a wonderfull idea:)
what a wonderfull
That is such an amazing idea. You are so smart!!!
That was one difficult trip to “Build a Bear”. I was holding back tears the majority of the time.
That was such a beautiful idea. Our kids are an amazing gift from God to us that make and keep us complete inside.