No, I’m not talking about breakfast. It’s a vent and silly compared to everything else, but I thought it’d be funny to share. What I’m talking about is my face. Before my first cancer in 2005, I had a pretty round face that people said was “cute,” which is okay when you’re younger but it’s not exactly “womanly.” My face thinned after my oral surgery and losing some weight, and I liked the longer shape my face took. In fact, for the first time, my primary care doctor told me to stop losing weight because my face was getting a “caved in” look. Do you know how much joy the phrase “stop losing weight can bring someone?” Oh my. Years passed, and some of those pounds came back but my face fortunately didn’t become round again. Then, I got pregnant with Joshua and I did get some of that roundness back, but I knew it was temporary… and then leukemia. My face is a total circle! Mom says it’s caused by my drugs, especially the steroid because she’s had the same issue. I feel it’s that plus I eat more than I used to; I have to in order to take my massive amount of pills. Honestly, there are times when I am totally done eating, but I have 4 more pills to take so more food. If I try to take pills without food, I feel sick. So, in addition to my face, I’ve gained weight in my middle too, which I really hate. I kept being told not to lose weight because I’d lose so much because of the transplant (which I only did for a short period of time). Now, it only seems to be gain. Oh well. Back to my face. I have a turkey neck – so gross – or what many would call a double chin. I hate that more than the round face because it looks so awful, especially in pictures (so don’t expect me to attach one!). You’re probably wondering why I said “spotted moon”? Well, the freckles on my face are much more prominent. It’s been like that for a while. That doesn’t really bother me. I find it more amusing because when I was a kid I was told that freckles came from standing behind a cow (that’s my farm origins). I don’t remember standing behind a cow during this, but they’re pretty brown. My grandma was covered in freckles; I think it was her Irish heritage, but mine have always been kinda muted.
I suppose that’s it. This should be my last post in Tampa because Joel and Jake are coming today and we’re leaving tomorrow. Don’t fret; I plan to continue this blog in WPB but it may take a few days before a new update as I get resettled at home home. Wish me luck!
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You are so funny. Glad you are headed home. Your readers will be thinking of you and this reader will be praying that your transition goes smoothly. Dont take on too much, but enjoy being home =).
Good Luck!!!! and round faces are sexy!!!!! ♥
Good luck , Jamie.And, your mom is right, the round face is a classic steroid side effect. It should get better if they are able to wean your steroid.
You would know, Dr. Stout. Yeah, I know. It’s just funny how perfectly round you get.
Hi Jamie, You’re coming home! Fantastic! Even with a million pills it will be wonderful to be home with the million hugs and kisses of Joel and the boys! I never heard your story about where freckles originate–I’d always heard that they meant you were kissed by the sun. Many hugs from Cyberspace! Love, Gracie
Glad you are on your way home- back to a family that loves you – friends who care – and a God who is awesomely faithful (okay, I know He was in Tampa, but I needed to keep the parallel structure going).
Love your reasoning, Marcy!